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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 0:48:05 GMT -5
Reno pouted at his aunt then looked at Rufus in surprise as the blonde started laughing at him. "H-Hey! That's not very nice yo!" He huffed as he fell in a chair beside the other.
Roxas blinked up at the red-head his cheeks darkening at the others words. Maybe... he was right...
He blinked then jerked in surprise at the next admission. He... He was... going to lead? His wide eyes raised to meet Axel's and the two looked at each other silently for a few moments. Finally Roxas smiled faintly and reached over grabbed a cloth from the bowl. He reached up and grabbed onto Axel's chin to hold his face steady as he started to dab at the cuts and carefully against the bruised eye.
"Well... we aren't gonna get much dancing done for awhile..."
After they cleaned each others cuts and bandaged each other up the best they could, the two teens spent most of the evening lounging around. They only got up when they were called for dinner and, of course, Axel went to make the call.
It took a bit of coaxing but he got his father to agree to let him stay over - he wasn't sure what the hell he'd do tomorrow, Maybe buy some cover up and hope they never found out. He wasn't sure how he was going to explain his skateboard though...
He felt incredibly bad at dinner though since he got more food as well. He tried to give it up but Sera would have none of it. It was... really tasty at least.
Before Roxas knew it... it was time for bed. And he was being told to strip. "Umm.... okay...?" Well they were... both guys. This was normal, right? He shrugged out of his clothes carefully, soon in nothing but his white and black boxers. The new bruises and cuts he were seen were easily to distinguish across his slightly tanned skin. He folded up his clothes and placed them near the TV so he wouldn't forget where he put them then glanced back... seeing Axel staring at him. "W-What?"
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 1:08:23 GMT -5
Axel looked back to make sure the bed was alright. SHIT, SHIT, SHIT! Why did he only have a twin. Sure... he and Demyx could fit on it... they were both thin and... well, they were use to cuddling just because they had been friends forever... BUT ROXAS! He still had his baby fat right?
His green eyes looked back and his jaw couldn't help but drop. Daaaaaaaamn..... He swallowed, not hearing Roxas at first but when he looked up, he jerked back into reality. "O-oh... OH! I was just looking at the bruises... I mean... yous should of just let me take the beating..."
He turned, his face bright red.
Shit...
He slowly reached for his pant button and unbuttoned, pulling down the zipper and off came his pants.
Of course he was going to have FLAMES on his boy shorts. WHY WAS HE ACTING LIKE THIS!? He saw Roxas change all the time with Pence and Hayner... no big difference right...?
"A-alright shorty, you jump in first." He bit his lip as he heard Roxas behind him get in and under the covers. The redhead turned and reached his long arms to the one bulb and pulled the chain.
Now in the dark, the redhead's stomach twisted.
Maybe he should go get stabbed in the couch.
He shook his head before getting onto the bed and laying down, fearing that his skin might touch the other's.
He laid there... as straight as a board.
Oh yea.... comfortable....
Green eyes glanced over, only seeing the outline of the blonde. "Uh.... night....Roxie...."
About a hour later, Axel was becoming restless. His limbs didn't like being confined and the room was only getting hotter. He glanced over at Roxas, seeing him better now that his eyes were use to the dark. His breathing had become steady and heavier... showing the sign that he was asleep.
The redhead bit his lip as he slooooooowly turned in the bed, trying not to make much noise as he turned towards the blonde. He laid down slowly and inched his legs as far as he could until he touched Roxas's. Then... as slowly as possible, he reached out.
Fingertips twitched as they touched the soft skin, feeling so good under the pads.
Roxas....
The fingers slowly ran down the skin, passing a small navel and then passed it. So soft... His eyes lidded, just enjoying the warmth and feel of the blonde. Unfortunately, he didn't notice that Roxas as slowly stirring in his sleep...
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 1:43:53 GMT -5
Roxas smiled faintly, shaking his head. "Whether you took it or not, I'd still have a lot of the bruises." He blinked as the red-head turned away and heard the zipper coming down. Ut oh...
His cheeks flushed as he looked away while Axel bent down to pull down his pants, wishing he could slap himself each time he slipped a peek at the red-head's ass. What the hell was wrong with him?!
Axel quickly gave him reason to break from his thoughts though as he ordered him in bed. Without a second's hesitation, Roxas hurried forward and got into the bed, moving as close to the wall as he could without having to touch it. Cold plaster was not something he liked to wake up to in the mornings, especially since his bed at home wasn't pushed against the wall. He buried his head into the pillow so as not to stare at the pyro any longer and soon he heard a soft click of the light going off and the bed shifting as Axel joined him. He swallowed a little and shifted some in bed, laying on his side.
"Roxie....?" He asked curiously, unknowingly copying Axel on the day Demyx and he....
He chuckled faintly at the name that was decidedly very girlish. "Whatever... night Axie." Ha, see how he likes that!
He shifted just a little more stretching his legs out before curling them closer and slowly shut his eyes. Axel was right, it WAS warm... but it was pleasant for now.
After such a long day, it wasn't hard for the blond to fall asleep at all. His body was sore and drained and his overworked mind was just begging for sleep. It wasn't every day you faced death and lived to tell the tail.
He didn't know how long had passed since he shut his eyes, but it was a... strange feeling against his stomach that made him stir his mind breaking away from the sea salt ice cream wonderland he had recently been gorging on breaking away and being forgotten from his mind.
"Uhn..." The blonde uttered confusedly as he opened his eyes, seeing a faint outline of... spiky hair? "Ax...el?" The redhead jerked a little and looked up while Roxas blinked out the sleep from his eyes and slowly became aware of the legs pressed against his and the hand that had frozen on his abdomen. What... the hell?
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 13:33:34 GMT -5
Pads continued to run down the smooth skin when he suddenly heard his name.
SHIT!
He froze as green eyes looked up at the stunned blue.
"Uuuuuuuuuuh............." He suddenly drew a blank. SHIT! WHAT THE HELL WAS HE GOING TO SAY!? He didn't know KNOW what the hell he was doing so how was he suppose to explain it to someone else??
He slowly pulled away, laughing a bit uneasily. "Heheheeheeeeee..... uuuuh.... I'm a cuddler.... I uuuh..... forgot to tell you. S-sorry..." He quickly turned away and swallowed. Nice going, Axie... hopefully this straight A student will be stupid enough to believe that.
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 15:48:51 GMT -5
Now Roxas... was no straight-A student, except for his music courses of course, but to Axel those were probably the only courses of any importance.
.... They certainly were to Roxas
"Why do I have to get good grades in these boring subjects? I'm gonna be famous one day, just you wait!"
Yet, good grades or not, he... wasn't that stupid. Even if the relationship department wasn't really one he was an expert in...
"So.... whats it like being gay anyways?" Roxas had asked his brothers one cool morning.
"Same as being straight I guess. Like what you feel for Olette, except you know for a guy. Same urges to kiss and touch, same relationship dynamics, and don't forget, all those same embarrassing and shy moments at the start!" Sora had answered, grinning. Roxas knew those well since he WAS with Olette... holding hands and light kisses. They were all so... awkward.
"Yeah... don't worry Rox you'll know." Ven has teased. "When you get a desire to fuck ass and not pussy, you'll know."
"Hey what are you implying?!"
Axel... had that same look of uncertainty but the joy in closeness that... Olette had had when he started figuring out she....
Roxas shifted a little, moving slightly closer to Axel on the small bed and murmured. "Axel do you............." He hesitated, unsure before shutting his eyes and taking the dive. "Do you like me...?"
.................................. Well, if that wasn't the most egotistical question of the night.
"I-I didn't ask that, s-sorry." Roxas murmured softly turning around on the bed and staring at the wall, his cheeks rosy and a nervous weight in his stomach. Stupid. Stupid!! Why would Axel like him?! He nearly got the red-head KILLED today...
... and he wasn't a very good boyfriend anyways.
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 16:16:24 GMT -5
Axel's eyes looked out at his shitacular room. He swallowed a bit when he heard Roxas move behind him and moved..... closer??
He glanced back slowly, not bothering to move his head. That's when he heard the faint voice behind him.
"Axel do you............."
OHGODOHGODOHGODOHGODOHGODOHGOD!!!
"Do you like me...?"
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! He closed his eyes as his heart dipped. He just wanted to snap up and say: WHAT!? NO WAY! DIDN'T I JUST SAY I LIKED CUDDLING!?
But he couldn't... because he didn't know if he liked him or not.
He... must of if he was thinking about him instead of Demyx that night...
BUT HE WAS HIGH!
Before he could even think of a reply, Roxas spoke again.
"I-I didn't ask that, s-sorry."
He opened his eyes slowly as he felt the blonde move again. He moved his head this time to see Roxas looking out at the wall. Did Roxas not want to know because it was weird and gross?
It didn't seem like that was the reason why he asked though... and by the way he sounded, he knew it was that shy, teenage curiosity.
He wished Demyx was here to calm him down.
He wished Reno was here because he was gay and had to do the same thing with Rufus... maybe some help here!?
"If... I didn't like you... I wouldn't of mouthed off at someone with a gun...."
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 16:33:16 GMT -5
Roxas swallowed as he stared at the wall, nervous and unsure as the quiet thickened in the area. Why did he have to open his big mouth damn it!
There was silence in the room at the other's answer, then Roxas laid on his back and looked towards Axel, barely able to identify the others sharp green eyes in the darkness. He grinned a little. "So you saved me to get a date with me?" He murmured softly.
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 16:45:06 GMT -5
Axel's sharp green eyes only widened as he heard the question. His cheeks flushed as his mouth gaped. A DATE!? Who said anything about a date??
If he had a collar, he would of tugged at it. Damnit... was his room getting hotter??
"Heh.... y-yea, you total got me..." He chuckled nervously before shaking his head. "No... I did it because... I didn't know... what I'd do... knowing that I wouldn't see you again... and that's scarier than... a gun."
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 16:59:38 GMT -5
Roxas listened attentively as the other spoke, then gasped softly.
"I didn't know... what I'd do... knowing that I wouldn't see you again... and that's scarier than... a gun.
The blonde bit his lip, blinking away sudden tears. He'd never... ever has anyone tell him that before - it was like something out of a bad romance movie (and he should know he spent a good portion of his job watching them)! And just like the poor actress in the movie, he could feel his heart melt.
...Shit!
"A-Axel...." Roxas murmured before sliding closer to the other, much to the red-head's surprise. He swallowed before wrapping his arms around the other in a hug, cheeks flushing as there almost completely bare bodies brushes. "For... For whats it worth... Axel, I'd... I'd of saved your life too because you're... a really amazing person... and I feel so lucky having met you..." He shut his eyes wishing he had half a mind to be suave and cool-sounding right now! But no, nothing but gushy, gaga words!
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 17:23:31 GMT -5
Axel looked back at his room, hearing the silence. Yea, way to be mushy. He knew he didn't get that from his brother... then again... he never saw his brother much with Rufus... but maybe that was a good thing.
He couldn't help but smile as he felt an arm wrap around him, even if it shocked him. The warm from Roxas... was something much sweeter than the one his heater gave him. Not to Roxas's knowledge, Axel pinched himself. Nope... he wasn't dreaming.
Green eyes looked back slightly as Roxas started to speak again.
"you're... a really amazing person... and I feel so lucky having met you..."
What was so amazing about him? He lived in a horrible neighborhood, he was broke ass poor, he smoked weed... but he was a hell of a dancer!
He swallowed a bit before reaching his hand up and finding Roxas's. Man... this was so.... awkward.... His fingers ran between the others as if to hold his hand.
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 17:37:34 GMT -5
Roxas shivered a little as he felt fire-warm fingers ghosting over his hand. Why... did it suddenly feel like the air had turned molten?
He swallowed before twisting his hand around and slipping his fingers in-between Axel's longer ones, feeling the bony structure of the other's hand, the knobby knuckles and the slightly coarse and dry skin. Roxas shut his eyes, his cheeks heating up and his pulse skyrocketing.
Why... why did just this... feel so much better than when he had done it with Olette? More... natural?
Well fuck, there was only one reason that wasn't complete bullshit. He might as well take the dive with his brothers. Should of seen it coming even - they were triplets of course they would have the same orientation!
"Ax... I think... I like you too."
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 17:49:32 GMT -5
Axel looked down, seeing their hand mingle together in the dark. Man... if Demdem saw this, he would be rolling around on the ground. His body loosened up, not so tense anymore as he leaned into Roxas's warmth more.
He leaned back, his head moving and his red hair tickled the other's face. "Pfft.... who said I liked you...?" He joked as his fingers rubbed a bit onto that soft hand. How come his hands were so soft!? Did he not wash one dish in his lifetime??
"And... you think?"
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 18:17:16 GMT -5
It was called lotion. Though, he'd never admit to using it.
"You did," Roxas joked right back with a soft smile. But it quickly fell into a nervous frown at the other's next question.
He swallowed, his legs shifting and rubbing against Axel's some, the feeling of their leg hairs touching sending a ticklish feeling down his body. But... nothing more.
"Well... both my brothers are gay Axel and I mean Jesus, twins share EVERYTHING but I... I dunno..." Roxas murmured unable to look at the other because again a feel of inadequacy fell over him - but this time, it was because of something... much more intimate that filled him with a sense of... lacking. He bit his lip unsure if he really wanted to share this or not... but something about Axel made him feel slightly more secure.
Besides, Axel wouldn't go tattling to the whole school... right?
He let out a large sigh, then murmured softly:
"Don't... don't laugh at me, please? I think... something went wrong with me when I hit puberty or something. I just feel asexual really. I... even before I was dating Olette, and I'd have little 'crushes' I've never felt... sexually attracted to any of them, boy or girl. I wasn't even really... that attracted to her. Well I thought I was but we kissed and held hands and stuff and I felt hardly anything at all. I hardly masturbate or even feel a need to and... I've only ever had about three to four wet dreams in my life. That's NOT normal especially for someone my age! I mean... Jesus Sora is having wet dreams over his best friend, Ven isn't even a VIRGIN and I... I just don't even seen to care either way about it."
Unbidden he remembered his identical twin's argument after he had caught Terra and Ven in the movie theater.
"THE FUCK!? You know, when you start fucking, you just can't fucking stop!"
No... he'd probably never know that feeling. How... did they end up being so different? One who practically screamed for sex and the other completely turned away from it?
He licked his lips, noticing how suddenly dry they were as his face burned with shame. "Heh, I used... to have nightmares about it ya know? I would dream that I was in the most important relationship of my life... with someone I really, really liked maybe even loved. And finally we decide to take it to the next step, to sex and... I can't even get it up for the person of my dreams!" He chuckled bitterly, the sound weak and almost heartbroken.
"I dunno, it just it makes me feel so... incapable! Like I'm... somehow less of a guy because of it..."
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Post by Rikugurl on Nov 23, 2008 19:16:10 GMT -5
Axel blinked as he listened. He put on a pout as the information was given to him. It was more... sad than hilarious. He probably would of laughed back when he was a Turk.
Some teenager couldn't get it up.
In a WAY though... he kind of matured... and his brother, oddly enough, helped him with it.
It was Reno who had taken him out of the gang along with him.
Demyx was right... even if Reno moved away... he still loved his brother and wouldn't trade anyone in the world to take his place.
He pulled his hand away and turned, not so slowing and carefully this time as he pushed his elbow into his pillow and rested his head onto his hand. "You know... my brother told me that if I'm going to be a good person... I have to realize who I am. There are asexual people out there, Rox. Just because your brothers are gay... doesn't mean you are. Sure you're triplets... but you guys don't like the same color right? You don't like the same fashion and you don't like the same artist."
He smiled as he nodded. "You're your own you... and if you don't have strong feelings for someone... you shouldn't tell them that you like them. Maybe... you're just not interested in anyone... and that's ok. You're a busy guy... and I'm sure you have a lot more things to worry about then getting it up. I mean... sometimes I have a hard time getting it up.... but that's usually because I'm high."
Oops... well that one slipped....
"Look.... my brother's gay too. And it really didn't phase me until I started to yank my junk while thinking about... a guy. But... we're all different."
He leaned in closer and smiled. "Once you know... what your heart really wants... and you're happy and content with that... If you decided that you do want to be with someone... it won't matter if you can get it up or not. Love has to do with your heart, your feelings, your trust, your happiness... not your sexual organs. And if that doesn't work for you... you can always just convince yourself that it was only a dream."
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Post by Reno on Nov 23, 2008 20:06:52 GMT -5
Roxas smiled faintly as the other spoke, moving away from the red-head some, shivering when his body slid across the colder comforters. They didn't need to send each other any more mixed signal, right?
He listened without much of a response, not even to the high thing. It... sadly wasn't a surprise. For how and where Axel lived on top of the world-wide popularity of the drug among teenagers well... it just wasn't shocking.
He played at the threads in the blankets idly as the other finished a strange half smile on his face. Even... if he was different mentally from his brothers, how could he be different physically? The desire for sex was an innate, animal need... right? Natural and vital...
Favorite color was a far cry from favorite sexual position.
And love... well he had a lot of suspicions and qualms with that particular feeling. Did... it even make sense? To not have the ability to put out but still desire someone to be near? To be... 'loved'?
"I guess so..." Roxas murmured finally frowning a little remembering an article he had read years ago. He knew there were other asexuals out there... and there stories, for the most part, were... depressing. "I just don't want asexual to mean a-lone. Whether I like it or not... sex is still a really important even healthy part of a relationship, and it'd... be a really hard and unfair thing to expect someone else to give that up. Love or not. To find someone who could live without it and accept it as life without falling pray to desires to cheat or possible feelings of inability to 'love correctly'... it... it's just too much for most people. Especially in such a sex-obsessed world - I mean for fucks sake, sex between a couple is called 'making love'! Not to mention sexual interest drives passion and they say sex makes people feel like they are on a much more connective and intimate level with their partner. That the union is important to lessen the feeling of domination and submission in a relationship... " He shook his head, his tone angry and... almost hopeless. He'd obviously thought about this a lot.
"Guess I better sign my 'bachelor forever' ticket now while it's still cool."
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