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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 20:37:49 GMT -5
Ulrica looked at then. her eyes scanning Noa and her breath in a quickened state. she didn;t have a clue what she was doing but the lonliness ran through her again. she hated feeling this. it hurt so much. the tears ran down her eyes. she looked at them but the tears were not for Ryten death for now he was alive it was for.... Noa.
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 20:52:26 GMT -5
I held Ryten until I knew he was alive. He looked up at me. i looked back at him with a warm smile. A guardian angel? "No, there is no such thing." I looked up at Ulrica. She was crying. I................I didn't know why. Why was she crying................for me?
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Post by Jgains on Feb 23, 2003 20:56:46 GMT -5
Ryten hugged her tightly he didnt want her to let go of him he felt good with her holding him. It was a feeling he had never felt before. "please dont let me go..." he rested his head on her shoulders closing his eyes he wanted to fall asleep in her arms it felt so good to him. But why? His whole life he didnt care to be with anyone why did she make him feel different? He didnt care he liked the feeling. It was a good feeling he hadnt felt for so long...
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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 20:57:29 GMT -5
Ulrica locked eyes with her. she didn't even stop te tears from her red orbs as she stared. her tears just increased but she made no noises. she looked away the tears running down her neck now. she could not figure out this feeling... she just couldn't. what did she feel for Noa?
when she heard Ryten's words pain struck her and she shut her eyes tightly. what was wrong with her?!
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 21:05:09 GMT -5
I was stuck. i didn't know who to comfort. I couldn't comfort both at the same time. The night was going to be a long one, I knew that. Everything was happening so quickly. My father was coming up the stair to beat me for coming home so late from skool. I jumped out the window and ran and now I'm here with a man in my arms and a creature crying over me. I didn't want to let go Ryten. I held no one in my arms for a very long time. Not like that. but I didn't want Ulrica to stand there and cry. A wind blew and hit my naked body. I began to shiver and held Ryten closer. I love you too, Ulrica.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 23, 2003 21:10:17 GMT -5
Slowly he fell asleep in her arms crying. Did he love her? No it couldnt be he didnt care for anyone not at all. Any time anyone tried to treat him nice he always just sent them away hurt somehow. Sadly he new it wouldnt matter even if he did love her there would be no point to it she didnt love him at all... She was in love with somebody that was already dead probrably... Ryten cried in his sleep he felt alone in the world even with her holding him... why did she save him at all then? He wanted death to come and take his life as soon as possible.
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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 21:15:05 GMT -5
Ulrica stared at the two. she could finally figure it out. she loved Noa... why? she didn;t know she did. she felt jealous and lonely... she just wished.... she just wished she wasn;t here anymore but she didn;t want to leave either. why did love have to be so painful? if she tells noa... she'll be disgusted. a girl and anothet girl... plus she has her own love.... and Ryten seems to be a man and he would get much closer. wehy oh why did this have to happen?!
Ulrica felt more tears run down her cheeks. she looked away again. she felt so helpless.... yet she could never tell Noa.... she could never utter those words. it would make Noa so disgusted.. she'll never see her again. she wished to say those words as much as anyone. i love you Noa..... i wish you could understand it as well.
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 21:25:27 GMT -5
Love. What exactly was love? Raganu? Was he even still alive? Six years is a long time. I was liveing in a fantasy world until now. He's alive, I'll find him. I'll find his tomb; that's what i will find. I didn't care. I had to know if he still lived. If not........I must move on. Death? I think not. I tried to kill myself many times but it never happened. Something pulled me back. But what. I snapped out of thought. I picked ryten up and set him on the bed. I kissed his forehead then turned to Ulrica. i felt weird standing there naked with blood running down my body. I covered my breats and loooked at Ulrica.
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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 21:31:47 GMT -5
Ulrica looked at her and frowned. she looked away blushing. her whole face was red. she wished she could stare much longer... but she knew this was wrong. she knew she should be treated this way it just hurt so much.
Ulrica stood and started walking for the window. she was jealous... why couldn't she of been a man! at least she'd be treated like a normal human being. no she just had to be this way! she was stuck loving a girl... and it felt right to her but not to the one she loved.
she stopped be the window and glanced at Noa. she gazed at her sadly. Ulrica felt sad.... and so lonely. she just wished... she just wished Noa felt the same. she could never take her heart though... it was not meant to be.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 23, 2003 21:35:02 GMT -5
Ryten suddenly felt a cold shiver go down his spine as he was let go. His tears were worsening he wanted to find the person she loved and rip him in half with his gunblade then bathe in his blood. But he couldnt do that he just couldnt go back to how he used to be he had changed.... atleast thats what he wanted himself to believe. But was it true, yes it was he hadnt hurt anybody for so long if they hadnt deserved it.
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 21:43:16 GMT -5
I walked towards Ulrica. "why are you leaveing me? Please don't go." i took her hand and held it. "Please, you're the only one that knows what I am. i'm confused about my body. Why do I have wings? Why do my eyes glow blue whan I am angry? How can I grow fangs and nails. I'm confused. Why am I different? You must have the answers." She stayed there in silence. her tears grew and she looked at me. I tried to understand why she was crying but I could not read her thoughts. I could read everyones elses but hers. Could she read my mind? Does she know of Raganu?
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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 21:50:11 GMT -5
Ulrica stared at her then hugged her, "Noa.... i really don't know the answers. i ask myself the same type of questions. all i know is we were brought her.... different for a reason. we were born to do something speacial.... i'm sorry.... i wish i knew."
Ulrica felt ashamed that she could not tell her. she also felt her heart racing. they were so close. she felt more tears fall and she started sobbing. why couldn't she do anything right?
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 22:03:23 GMT -5
"Please stop crying." i held her tight. I felt............i didn't know how i felt. It was a mix of everything. Happy, sad, excided,lonely. My eyes darkend. I should have never ran away. I should have stayed and been beaten. Beaten to death? No, i couldn't let that happen. Why was i thinking so selfishly? I had to stop it. Ulricas' tears blended with Rytens' blood. I was in two peoples hands. I out my wings around Ulricas' cold body. The window was open and the wind blew through it. I wanted to feel love. Real love. I was tierd of being raped all the time. I sighed and put my chin on Ulricas' shoulder.
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Post by Reno on Feb 23, 2003 22:11:03 GMT -5
Ulrica sighed slowly. after awhile her tears stopped but she didn't move. she felt like such a faliure. her parents didn;t want her and she couldn;t answer her own love... why did she have to be alive?
she didn;t have a clue what to do or say so she looked up at Noa sadly, "i'm sorry.... i'm such a faliure."
she wished to make Noa happy... very happy. but it couldn;t happen.... it just couldn't.
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Post by Rikugurl on Feb 23, 2003 22:19:57 GMT -5
I put my hands on Ulricas' shoulders. "You're not a failure. No one is." I looked at her for a moment. I wipped her tears from her face. I walked to the window and shut it. Then I walked back to her. i felt a little bit better being naked. We were both girls. It wouldn't matter. Ryten has seen me naked too. I felt more at peace. My mind relaxed. I took Ulrica to the corner and sat down with her. "if me and Ryten got to space, will you come with us? I'm probably have to morph into a male due to the army rules. 'No girls allowed'."
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