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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 21:18:30 GMT -5
He winced when Sora tugged him violently the boy was yelling out random things, his head was starting to throb he looked into the mirror at his own face still not understanding. He groaned then froze looking down at the picture that Sora had shown him then up at his own face then down at the picture again suddenly gripping it.
" No... this... this can't... tihs can't be..." he started to tremble all over the pain in his head getting worse as he dropped the picture backing away from Sora " I can't... I can't remember anything..." he whispered breathing harder each time his heart pounding.
" Take me back... take me back to the alley..." he was starting to feel unsafe, he couldnt... he couldnt be here!
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 21:21:25 GMT -5
Sora looked at him quietly, knowing he was scared and afraid then slowly shook his head. "No... Dad I told you back on that day you took me in. Family sticks together no matter what. and your family and even if you DON'T remember me... please let me take you there..."
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 21:30:41 GMT -5
He grimaced then pushed past Sora and suddenly started to run, he had to leave. he had to get out of here! This was too much... too much was being pushed at him all at once...!
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 21:37:16 GMT -5
"Dad!!" sora cried, running after him. "Please don;t go!!"
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 22:05:21 GMT -5
" Stop it! Stop calling me that!" he screamed suddenly panic confusion all building up inside " I don't know who that is in that picture!" he shouted pointing towards where he dropped the picture " I... I don't have a family... I... I...!"
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 22:14:16 GMT -5
"No you just can't remember that you do!" Sora said back, running to his father's side, grabbing his arm and looking up at him with wide and sad eyes. "Even if you don't remember there should be no reason for you to live on the streets anymore!! Please..."
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 22:16:12 GMT -5
" What do you expect me to do!?" he shouted right back at Sora his head ache was getting worse, especially the spot where the scar on his right temple was, he grimaced holding his head " I can't... I can't remember this person you wan't me to be... even if I am your father... even if there is a possibility... how do you expect me to just get these memories back!?"
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 22:19:48 GMT -5
"Even if you NEVER do..." Sora started looking at him. "We can make knew ones. You don't have to be my dad... but you can be my friends! Whther you take the name of Raichu San or... Kyoji once again... I... please... just please don't leave."
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 22:21:37 GMT -5
He breathed backing up against the wall the slowly slid down gripping his head tightly in both hands not knowing what to do... this wasnt... was this really happening? Was this what he had been looking for this whole time...? This boy... was he really going to accept him just like that? A lowly bum on the streets...? What really did happen to him three years ago...?
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 22:42:51 GMT -5
Sora frowned walking over and knelt down beside him, offering a comforting hand on his shoulder. He was trying to lend his father some strength...
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 22:54:40 GMT -5
" I... I will go... but if I don't feel at ease im going to leave..." he said suddenly looking up at Sora fear in his own voice.
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Post by Reno on May 12, 2008 23:07:09 GMT -5
Sora smiled and nodded. "Alright... agreed."
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Post by Jade on May 12, 2008 23:15:54 GMT -5
It all seemed to happen way too quick, the drive home was the longest part he had been staring at the picture that Sora had put into his hands the entire time. No words had been exchanged from the two the entire drive there, his name... Raichu San... atleast thats what Sora told him who he was. But he still felt like Kyoji... the name that he had been going by for the past three years. But this Raichu guy... if he was the same person, the smile he had with that family in the picture.
Those beautiful children, the small girl latched onto him the big smile, hair just like his the rest of the kids... Sora had told him all their names, it was a handful just to remember. Then right next to him... in his eyes was a goddess, a woman with a beauty that he couldnt even comprehend... she was... was his wife...? In all his years he had never seen anything more beautiful... than that very woman and the children in the picture of the man with his very face. How badly he wanted to remember... how badly he wanted to remember there smiles, the laughter... the love that he could see in just this one picture...
He clenched it tightly not wanting to let go, almost as if this very picture was a very part of his life that he could never let go. So badly... so very very badly...
But the only memories he had were the three years in the streets, begging for money to stay alive, washing windows being spat upon or even knocked to the side. Digging through garbage cans just to survive from the scraps that people threw away, living through the harsh winters and trying to find shelter when it was too hard to find... and this whole time he had a family. Was it his fault that Sora had gone through so much pain? Sora said after his father died... everything had gone down hill, his mother had gone into a coma, they lost their home... forced to move to the slums where drugs and gangs prospered.
" Its all my fault..." he whispered suddenly breathing hard gripping tightly onto the picture " Everything is my fault..."
He looked over at Sora he felt like he wanted to cry, it was a feeling he couldnt remember the last time that he had done it " You and your family... they lost everything because... because I was too damned weak to keep my memories! I... I... I want to remember so badly!" he grimaced feeling his head throb again.
Sora had finally calmed him down enough before they made their way to the home, the neighborhood that they went through, the park they past the trees, the streets it all felt eerily familiar... he felt like he knew his way around this place but he knew he had never seen it before.
Thats when he saw it the home... his eyes widened as he gripped the door handle tightly uncertain of what to even do. the car had parked right outside of the house and he just stared his orange eyes wide, exitement, fear, frustration, sadness all boiled up into one big boiling pot ready to explode. " I don't know if I can do this..." Kyoji said looking over at Sora suddenly still very uncertain.
" Sora-Nii is home!" Raine cried running down the stairs as fast as she possibly could, she had only a half day today at school, most of the other kids were still at school. It was just her and Orihime today, Kairi always worked all day on the weekdays, that or she was at college... but she was almost home at night to make sure to help with dinner or homework! But when Sora got home she was always the happiest " Sora-Nii! Sora-nii!" Raine cried running down the stairs as fast as she possibly could
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Post by Reno on May 14, 2008 23:05:38 GMT -5
Sora had been shocked at the other;s outburst in the middle of the drive back home. He had glanced sidelong at his father before pulling over, snapping the picture from his hand. "Dad quit it!" He had told him. "It's not your fault... whatever happened back then happened and we can;t change that. But the family;s okay now... or mostly okay. we're getting better again and most importantly we still stuck together - well besides Ryten but that;s always been Ryten's way." He looked awya, murmuring. "and what do you mean me and MY family? You mean us and our family."
Once Sora had parked his car, he cut the engine, listening to the other;s words with one ear. "when you were raichu you thought you could do everything." He said, before looking at him, smiling. "It won;t be that bad, trust me."
"Raine don't run in the house!" Orihime called after, hurrying after her. She was an energentic little thing most of the time but nothing she couldnl;t handle/
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Post by Jade on May 14, 2008 23:53:36 GMT -5
" I'm not Raichu though..." Kyoji said looking at Sora " I don't know the first thing about having a family... I don't..." he just looked at Sora still uncertain his hand was shaking with the fear of disapointment. What if they didnt like him? What if they were scared of him... what if... they didnt want him here? All of those questions continuously poured through his mind, and it scared him... even if this was what he had been searching for the past few years, what if none of them accepted him?
" I'm just scared Sora... I'm scared they won't accept me, I'm scared they will either fear or hate me for... for everything thats happend." he frowned staring towards him " I'm afraid my smile won't be enough..."
Raine suddenly opened the door then looked back " Hime-Nee come on! " she shouted waiting for the older orange haired woman, to come down the stairs a big smile on her face, she loved greeting her brother any time he came home! It was always so much fun!
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