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Post by Rikugurl on Mar 2, 2003 1:29:54 GMT -5
I kept crying. I had fully changed back to my female form. the clothes did not fit me any longer. "How can I love anyone if I don't even love myself!?" I ripped off my clothes to reviel my scars and bruises. My body had been so soft and beautiful when I was with raganu. Now it was scared and beaten. I had let this happened. I no longer loved myself. I sat there cold and so hurt. My naked body shivered as I cried. My angel wings grew and I covered myself. I hate myself.
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Post by Reno on Mar 2, 2003 1:36:13 GMT -5
Ulrica frowned and pushed her wings away, "i think you look beautiful Noa. it doesn;t matter of you;re scars you won my heart. if no one else could except that they don;t truely love you." she rasied Noa's head and wiped the tears away then hugged her tightly, "i love both you're sides... i know i could never win over your female side though... i'm not a man. i guess i just can;t do it. plus i don;t deserve you."
Diana looked at Ryten, "i.... i jsut don;t know. i love you for who you are not what you have done." She frowned a little.
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Post by Jgains on Mar 2, 2003 1:45:21 GMT -5
Ryten stared down towards her " Diana are you sure you want to do this with me... I mean.. you dont have too... but.. i mean..." he sighed he didnt know what he wanted at all did he actually want to do this with her if he did he would have to be with her the rest of there lives... but he wasnt sure if it was what he wanted he smiled down towards her gazing into her eyes she did make him feel good.... but... he still loved noa...
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Post by Rikugurl on Mar 2, 2003 1:49:24 GMT -5
My purple eyes began to shine. I knew Ulrica would die for me. But.......did she really love me? "Ryten said he loved me.....and look at what he was doing." I began to cry harder. Oh it hurted so much. if raganu just stayed. I would have to go through this. i couldn't love ulrica in that way. it was impossible. i wish i could rip Noaminsu out of me and give him to her. But i couldn't. Ulrica ment more to me. There was something about her. I had to ask. "Ulrica, how old are you?"
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Post by Reno on Mar 2, 2003 1:54:59 GMT -5
Ulrica blinked. she didn;t expect the question but she knew Noa could not love her. she was not a man. she could never be Noa's love, "i'm nineteen...why?"
Diana swallowed and nodded, "yes i want to do this but.... do you?"
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Post by Jgains on Mar 2, 2003 2:00:58 GMT -5
Ryten sighed sadly he didnt know what he wanted at all. Gently he brushed his lips closer to hers " all I want is... to be happy... I want a family... thats all I have ever wanted..." ryten held her tightly up close to him " I want to be happy with somebody... I dont even know... what I want..." he wanted to be with noa he had to find her but... he didnt want to hurt Diana at all he shouldnt ever of kissed her now hes stuck... " i want to make you happy... thats what I want..."
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Post by Rikugurl on Mar 2, 2003 2:03:24 GMT -5
I sighed. i knew it. She wasn't my mother. I would never know. I knew that we were in space now. i stood up (still crying) and looked out the window. The stars were so beautiful. I would love to die among them. It seemed so peaceful up here. Why must there be blood shed? I cloesed my eyes and thought. Raganu is dead. He must be. I soon will die as well.............
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Post by Reno on Mar 2, 2003 2:10:23 GMT -5
Ulrica frowned and sighed. she knew the truth now, "you don't love me Noa. do you? because i'm not a man. i could never give you what you want. i wish i could. i want to be what you want me to be. i'm sorry that i'm not... i'm soprry i can;t be what you want me to be. i'm sorry i was ever born! i could never make you happy could i? you'd never let me would you?!" Ulrica felt the tears in her eyes run down slowly and for some reason anger was running through her, "all because i'm bisexual. all because i could never make two sides happy! you'll never let me!"
Diana pushed him away angry, "you shouldn;t do this then! not to just make me happy! go ahead and say it! you really dion't love me do you? you're just lieing again aren't you? you still want Noa! well i know where she is like Ulrica! Noaminus IS Noa! they ARE one in the same! go find her. you'll be happy then. by the way can you lend me a gun?"
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Post by Jgains on Mar 2, 2003 2:21:24 GMT -5
Ryten glazed at her he didnt understand how could noaminsu be noa... he then nodded " thank you diana... im im sorry i couldnt be here with you..." he sighed as he stood up and handed her a gun " why do you want this? diana... tenks is alive hes your brother, you still have family left go find him... along with your father and Casey... there alive i was able to check the records... I was going to tell you later but..." he looked up he had to go now to find noa " thank you for everthing... Ill find them for you I promise ill bring them back to you." Ryten then turned grabbed his shirt and coat and put them on slowly he closed his eyes and felt where ulrica was and used his mind to teleports his body inside the ship but not in the same room as noa and ulrica
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Post by Rikugurl on Mar 2, 2003 2:31:05 GMT -5
I turned to Ulrica. She had tears in her eyes. "Ulrica? No, no don't say that. I love you. I......I'm sorry about Noaminsu. I really am. I don't care if you're bisexual. I really don't. If raganu is gone....You will probably be my last hope. i'm so sorry." I up my arms around her. i kissed her neck and stood there, unable to say much more. I was choked up. Suddenly a beeping went off and a voice came up. ~~Space grave yard coming up in 5 minutes. Please press blue button to pay tribute to all who has died. Thank you.~~ i stood there motionless. Should I press the button? I sighed and waited.
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Post by Reno on Mar 2, 2003 2:34:52 GMT -5
Ulrica buried her head into Noa's shoulder and hugged her, "Noa if he is dead... maybe you should pay you're last respects to him and i'm sorry myself i guess i'm acting selfish.... also.... what if Ryten finds out will you love him before me?" she could sense he was on the ship. he could have never done that tp Diana that quickly. he was still free.
Diana looked at the gun and started crying. he didn;t love her. he didn;t at all. but Reno and Casey are alive. but how... how was she going to get out of here?
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Post by Jgains on Mar 2, 2003 2:38:12 GMT -5
Ryten walked out from the other room as he opened the door infront of them and pressed the blue button he was staring out in space sadly "I lost alot of good friends out here... so many brave men who risked there lives for us... I shouldnt be alive I should of died with my men..." Ryten had a small tear come down from his face as he looked over to Noa " I was a fool noa... I didnt know what I was doing... I love you not anyone else... " he kneeled down infront of her and ulrica " forget what you saw... I thought you where gone and id never see you I didnt know you where noaminsu... noa my love for you... I thought that you could never love a person like me... please just just tell me I must know noa... is it possible..." he stared directly into her eyes he had a small tear rush down his eyes like a shooting star falling from the heavens...
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Post by Reno on Mar 2, 2003 2:41:40 GMT -5
Ulrica slowly let go of Noa and backed away from the two. she was ready to watch the scene. like in the movies. Noa would run to Ryten kiss him and hug him and they'd be together like a fairy tail. she and Diana would be alone.... in the cold darkness. there was nohing she could do. she was a female. he was a male. she had lost. Diana had lost. Ryten.... and Noa..... had won.
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Post by Rikugurl on Mar 2, 2003 2:47:33 GMT -5
ooc: AHHH! the preasure!
I looked down at Ryten then at Ulrica. Damn i wish I could split myself in two. Noaminsu for Ulrica and-- "Ryten....you were going to have sex with Diana. How can you say you love me? If she hadn't stopped you. You know what would happen." ~~Landing in 3 minutes. Thank you again for your tribute.~~ i sighed. I didn't know what to do. What to say. I was caught once again in a vicious cycle of the word "Love".
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Post by Jgains on Mar 2, 2003 2:54:01 GMT -5
Ryten put his hand on her cheek brushing it softly " please noa... I... I... Im sorry forgive me... if you dont Ill... I will kill myself! I cant think of life without you!! I couldnt bare it!! If you leave me I will do it Ill do it and this time I wont come back... please noa..." he reached for her hand " I didnt love her you know that... I was scared you told me as a man... I should be with her I didnt know what to think... please noa... I love you!" ryten started crying he didnt want to lose her... he wanted her to hold him again like before, or he wanted to be the one to hold her he loved her more than life itself... she made him fell so happy when he was around her...
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