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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 20:48:49 GMT -5
Kitty closed her eyes wrapping her legs around his. shelooked at him almost pleading. in her eyes held understanding. she knew he could never hurt her. not on purpse at least. her eyes held trust as well. she trusted him, "give me something... a son, daughter anything!"
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 20:51:29 GMT -5
"Kitty... i... cant... I cant do that to you, I wont leave you with a child to raise on your own. Its bad enough knowing we probrably wont see each other ever again but to not see my own child... to know i had a child that was mine that didnt have a father.. I couldnt do that."
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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 20:57:18 GMT -5
"please Josh! two children instead of one... would be god's gift. your gift! i want a child! then i know our love well be in full intact with that child! it can never be broken as long as the child is there."
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 20:59:37 GMT -5
He shook his head "I cant.... I wouldnt be able to live with myself if I had a child that i could never see... Thats why I chose the path im going to The children i saw... I want to see them I want to be a father to them... Im sorry kitty..." He sighed he just couldnt leave such a burden on her all alone
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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 21:19:25 GMT -5
Kitty looked at him gripping his arms, "please!!! it's my last request the last thing i wish for... is a little babay boy to have.... even if it's a fifty fifty chace i wish to have a boy...."
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 23:05:23 GMT -5
He couldnt do this it would change the future to much he would go through life knowing he had a child out there somewhere that he would never see... "Kitty I cant do this I couldnt take it. I just cant have a child that I have nothing to do with... im sorry.."
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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 23:09:50 GMT -5
Kitty was shaking and tears ran down her face.
"please Josh! it's all i ask for!!!" Kitty said desperatly. her nails where digging in his arms and she looked mesirble, "please!!!"
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 23:15:09 GMT -5
Josh Looked directly into her eyes he couldnt do this at all he wouldnt it would bring to much pain to his own heart. "I wont kitty and I cant..." Josh stood up and got out of the tent and began walking he needed some time to himself to be alone...
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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 23:24:51 GMT -5
Kitty sat up while he left. she sat there still as stone before falling back into her pillow cryinghysterricall. her whole body shook. she wanted a kid. why couldn't he give her that blessing? did that not show they were in love? what's wrong?!
Kitty felt sick again. she could never discribe the feeling. heartbreak was horrible.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 23:39:27 GMT -5
Josh thought for the longest time sitting under a tree he didnt know what to do he didnt want kitty to be hurt he decided he would do it for her... even though he would carry the burden of this the rest of his life...
Josh stood upwards as he ventured back to the tent. Pacing back inside he laid down next to her getting back inside the sleeping back with her. "Kitty... I... ill do it... but dont use this against me.. please no matter what I wont stay I cant... if those children i saw arent born it would be as if i were murdering them not even allowing them to be born.. you understand... right..."
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Post by Reno on Feb 7, 2003 23:47:10 GMT -5
Kitty looked at him before a smile slowly spread across her face. she hugged him, "thank you...."
she never felt so happy. maybe she will get that boy after all, "if it is a boy... do you have a name to wish me to call him?"
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Post by Jgains on Feb 7, 2003 23:52:52 GMT -5
He looked at her "I have no names... im sorry..." he was sad this child he would never see... why hadnt he seen this coming in the visions he didnt know at all. "Kitty... this is important to me... promise me you will take good care of the child" Josh was completley sad his heart was in pain he wnated something to do with this but he couldnt... he must find the one his fate chose out for him he new her name but just wouldnt tell it to kitty he new that kitty would want to find her and harm her... Josh new alot more than he was letting out about his future and about the person he was destined to find...
"Kitty... I want.. I want to see the child atleast once when he or she is born... promise me you will try to find me..."
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Post by Reno on Feb 8, 2003 0:09:07 GMT -5
kitty nodded, "i promise. i really do. where will you be though? in midgar? kalm? where are you going to be after you find.... her?"
Kitty felt pain rip at her but she would keep her promises. even if it killed her.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 8, 2003 0:17:15 GMT -5
He looked at her "we... um.. Im not exacly sure... I know that we will live at that manor at costa del sol with our children but thats it... I dont really know much we wont live in midgar because..." Josh shut up right there he didnt want to tell her what would happen to midgar The giant meteor, holy everything that would happen "Kitty just make sure that after you find your daugter you leave midgar and never return, I wont be there and you shouldnt either something bad is going to happen.. something very bad in the next few months..."
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Post by Reno on Feb 8, 2003 0:25:21 GMT -5
Kitty looked at him, "i wasn;t planning on staying at all anyways. what happens to midgar is none of my concern and i'd not get raped again but whats going to happen?"
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