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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 0:49:19 GMT -5
Kitty looked at him but didn't respond. she felt a bit hurt then she swallowed it.
"what dream?" she asked simply but even then her voice shook. she felt sick. it hurt so bad. she never thought love could do this. never.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 0:54:17 GMT -5
Slowly he paced over to her and kissed her on the head "just forget it ok? it doesnt matter what I said." He brushed his hand against her cheek " after we seperate promise me you wont ever forget me. I know I wont forget you..." He sighed he new that it would end he wondered if the girl in his dreams would give him as much happiness as kitty brought to him he knew though even if she couldnt he couldnt change the future the risk was to great and he wouldnt be able to carry the burden within his heart
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 0:58:22 GMT -5
Kitty nodded, "i could never. your the only one wo ever made me feel.... this way. it's so different. i could never forget you."
Even then Kitty felt like her stomach was doing flip flops. it hurt a lot. she always thought.... but she was always wrong. it didn't matter what she thought. God would never be kind enough to give her what she wanted. she was guessing... she deserved it all. she must have.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 18:20:35 GMT -5
slowly he brushed his hand against her cheek "Someday kitty youll find peace even if it is without me.. Maybe someday if shinra falls you and Reno could raise your daughter together." He let out a sigh he hated what he said he wanted to help her raise her daughter but he couldnt at all.
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 18:28:15 GMT -5
"thats a lot of maybe's....." kitty muttered it. she had the weridest feeling that was never going to happen. she knew it was impossible to do that. diana would find out easily. it would be too hard for her to take....
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 18:34:13 GMT -5
Josh laid down right next to her and wrapped the two of them in a blanket as he held her tightly. "This is the last time ill ever be able to hold you like this..." He brought his lips closer to her as he brushed them slightly against hers. he then rested his head and held her tighter
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 18:39:56 GMT -5
"why? why only the last? can't you make you own future??" Kitty asked despreatly. she was still trying. she never gave up hope. never.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 18:43:38 GMT -5
he sighed sadly "I.. I cant kitty.. the lives i saw the children they became precious to me in my mind. Ever since I saw myself with them ive wanted to meet them from the begining, and if I dont do this they wont ever exist it would be as if... i were stopping them from coming to life. I cant do that not to my own children. I know it sounds crazy ive never met them. But some how i have a heart for there souls and if i dont find what im looking for ill never see them ever..."
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 18:48:23 GMT -5
Kitty looked away from him trying to pretend the fact her heart was hurting. tears ran down her face. she knew it was impossible if only it was different. if only... she could do something. she suddenly growled.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 18:51:25 GMT -5
He let go of her Josh knew she was mad. He laid next to her and turned around not facing her. Josh didnt want to cause anymore pain to her so he decided to just shut up and not talk for the rest of the night. He decided as soon as he helped her find her daughter it would be best for him to leave without saying a word not even goodbye so then no emotion will be let out, no crying and no sadness.
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 18:56:16 GMT -5
Kitty was shaking, "how could you leave me? you love me! why would you leave me if you love me!? IT'S NOT FAIR!"
Tears streamed down her face and she curled into a ball, "why couldn't things be different?"
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 19:02:10 GMT -5
He stood up and walked out of the room with his head down he left he there alone. Josh stood outside leaning against the wall. He new that he loved her but it was obvious he couldnt stay with her he had obligations to his future family he just couldnt not let those children be born. He began to walk off out of the city. Josh took his steps one by one he didnt realize he was leaving kitty behind he was drowning himself in his own sorrow. "Why does life have to cruel why to me.. twice now ive lost ones ive loved..." He sat down there at the city gates staring up towards the sky...
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 19:08:02 GMT -5
Kitty was shaking and sobbing, "why me?! why him?! why did fate do this?! how cruel can a person get?!"
her mournful cries didn't reach the ears of anyone else. no one would or could help her. no she just didn't think it was possible.
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Post by Jgains on Feb 6, 2003 19:14:34 GMT -5
Josh decided from now on he would hide his emotions he wouldnt show them any longer. He would go back to how he was the cold hearted lone warrior that he used to be. He would still help kitty but wouldnt show any signs of care for her at all. He was good at holding back emotion he had done it his whole life. It was one of his best attributes about himself that he could think of. Until he found the person he was looking for he would hide his emotions completely from everyone it was settled. Slowly his eyes changed from a sad look to a calm yet dark sinister look. A look that most people would want to stay away from.
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Post by Reno on Feb 6, 2003 19:26:38 GMT -5
Kitty had her eyes closed trying to go to sleep. it didn't work. she decided it was better to get a few clothes on so she put on her underwear and her shirt before hopping back into bed. he never did answer...
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