Josh Gainsborough

[Reno]

ok well since SR is gonna reset the WHOLE place i wanna save the first part of my and Josh's(Gradds) and in the front Flamedog's RP! so if anyone wants to read it... read away. also ~...~ signals the person's post. and sorry bout all the spelling mistakes.

~JGains~
Josh Gainsborouh sits there silently staring up at the blue moon at cosmo canyon near by seto's statue holding his dragonsblade at his side wondering for what purpose was he put into this world... He then stands up and begins to walk off putting his dragonsblade at his side thinking once again about the cetra the slowly his body fades off....

OOC: heres a pic of the scene www.geocities.com/gradd08/Jgainsbackground.jpg

~Reno~
umm i guess i'll join. ^.^

Kitty, a young girl of 17, was walking through the river to cosmo canyan. she was shivering violently. her light blonde her was in limp pig tails and wet from the river water. her violet eyes showed her fatigue and slight possiblities of sickness.

When she got through the river she started her trek into the canyon still shivering like mad. her breath was becoming quicker and jumping.

~Flamedog~
right behind her running was her friend drat.carrying his sword on one side. silver aromer glaming in the night sky.around his neck was a amult that belong to his father and a coat for kitty.

~Reno~
Kitty looked back at Dart.

"You t-t-take t-t-too l-l-l-l-long." She said between her shivers. Her hands tightened around herself.

~Flamedog~
"came as fast as i could.' when I herd you where gone i new you would be here." drat said

~JGains~
Joshua Gainsborough walks down the long path of Cosmo canyon walking by the two youngsters looks back for a second then just keeps walking straight along the path holding his blade at his side staring at the ground silently....

~Flamedog~
drat looks up "hey you help my friend is not doing good we need help please" drat said as he ran up "our are you aganst us"

~Jgains~
He turns around slowly and looks towards them, with his eyes glowing slightly a pitch of green from the mako energy that once engulfed his body, then takes out a small bottle filled with red liquid inside of it and tosses it towards them... "Give that to your friend it will do her good" Josh then turns and begins walking off

~Reno~
Kitty walked after Josh and stopped him, "w-w-wait! w-w-who are y-y-you?"

~Flamedog~
"ah who are you" drat said as he pulled out his sword "and why didi you help us the least we can do is help you."

~Jgains~
He stops then slowly turns his head towards them "it doesnt matter who i am, and put your sword away child you can get hurt with playing with such a toy...." Josh grips his dragonsblade feeling the flames rush around his hand but not burning it then slowly spins it around then slides it in its case at his back and yawns briefly.... "and i need help from no one understand, I stand alone in this world and I would Prefer it to stay that way"

~Flamedog~
"did you call me a child" drat said as he used fire on his sword making it glow red"ill show you who the child is" drat yelled as he started to glow red in a trance then he jumped in the airand came down to slash him.

~Jgains~
Josh slowly steps to the side then swiftly brings his blade out of his case jumping into the air swiftly twirling about then slams the hilt of his sword towards his face, slams his knee up towards his gut. Joshua quickly lands on one foot towards the ground glaring towards him, "is that the way you treat a person that helps you..."

~Flamedog~
"no i dont like beening insulted" he told josh as he triped him and stuck his bade to his neck "get that threw that big head of our, your lucky im not going to kill you" he said as his hand stared to glow with lighting.

~Jgains~
Josh's whole body begins glowing red with emmense energy around it and he begins yelling in rage. Golden armor forms all round his body, and his arms slowly start changing metalic. Slowly his skin begins turning black in certain areas of his body and his eyes glow red then he swiftly slams his palm against the sword smashing it away then jumps into the sky and lands on a cliff. looking down towards them. "do not make me hurt you, understand i want no trouble from you" He slowly twirls his sword around then puts it at his back as it enters his case... "I do not want to use my Dark Archonic powers do not provoke them"

OOC: here is a pic of what he looks like once he changes... copy and paste it for it to work
www.geocities.com/gradd08/jgainsdarkarchon0.gif

~Reno~
Kitty sneezed and was shivering.

"g-g-g-g-guys??" She tried to say before shivering more. when they were looking at her she smiled weakly, "h-h-h-help..." she then fell onto the floor unconicous.

~Flamedog~
"we better help her your sill die then ill kill you." he said as he picked up kitty and stared to run .she was still sivering then drat got mad and he sarted two glow red . he stared to grow wing that were on fireing out of his armor and he flew as fast as he could. when he got to the hosipitle he was also helped becaus of the fire wound from his rage.

~Jgains~
Josh's body slowly fades disapearing then apears infront of him ."Set the Girl down so i may heal her do you understand.I am a cetra and can heal her easily so do as i say" Josh then powers down as his body slowly turns back to its normal state with his skin color changing back to normal and his armor disapearing, along with his old clothes back on.

~Flamedog~
drat looked up "what happen to me i grew wing and fire went around me ang i had som much rage<thanks for healing her" he told him as they all walked down the road "pease till me, it happen to you but you didnt have wings."

~Jgains~
Josh slowly gets down and kneels before her putting his hands together in prayer then forms light green energy and swarms it around her body healing her, then opens his eyes looking up. Josh stands up slowly "ur transformation is new to me i havent seen it before, mine was my dark archon form when i was captured by shinra they genetically merged my body with a dead alien body known as a protoss thus giving me the ability to become a dark archon. " He slowly cracks the side of his neck then turns and slowly starts walking away. "You are welcome for the help but i dont need help from anyone i prefer to stand alone in this world as i always have since my mother died....

~Flamedog~
"i think mine could have to do with when they starred experment on me. they said the ingect dragon bold in me." drat said as he got up" uh i can't controle it so when i get mad it happens." he told josh" what that sound its coming from over there" they pulled out there sword.

~Jgains~
He jumps into the air slowly floating upwards and lands ontop of the near by ridge and begins walking off once again on his own staring down at the ground not hearing the sound. He then stops for a second and turns back looking towards the moon thinking about life then unsheathes his powerful dragonsblade watching the flames circle around it then slams it down into the ground and leans up against the wall staring down towards drat and Kitty

~Flamedog~
"what is that" drat said as he used fire on his sword "do you know what it is, i have hread it before but cant rember what it was."

~Jgains~
Josh slowly fades disapearing then apears next to drat, "sounds like a behometh. Nothing to worry about it. As long as you make sure to stay out of its sight it wont bother you, do you understand and keep the girl out of sight she doesnt look like she can fight a behometh." Josh slowly twirls his sword around putting it back in its case and takes out his 9mm, and his caster gun filling the caster with a caster shell.

~Flamedog~
"what are you doing it will here you" drat said as he put his sword away and made a handful of fire "the bethem wount hert her if i make a fire selid around her." drat told him as he made the frouse filed.

~Jgains~
He looks towards him "I havent eaten in a couple of days and a nice big Behometh sounds good about now" Josh laughs to himself a bit running towards the direction of the sound with his guns at his side.

~Flamedog~
"ill help," drat pulled out a nother sword and but the two together to make a doble sided sword and he ran after him.

~Jgains~
Josh turns his head back still running"I dont need your help like i said earlier i prefer to be alone in life, i dont need anybody." He paces his speed going faster as his body slowly begins forming its dark archon armor once again with his eyes glowing red. His guns slowly disapear and his right hand charges up turning into a huge 3 clawed hand burning red.

[Reno]

~Flamedog~
drat jumped over his head and into the tree "why try to kill it i already killed it."draty said as he carred it to were they lift kitty.

~Jgains~
Josh slowly stops running and turns, and looks at him with his eyes glowing red. "what do you mean you already killed it"

~Flamedog~
"its right here" drat said as he was heading bake to kitty "i forgot to tell you i can teleport most people don't now that thats how i got to kitty so fast." drat but his swords away "lets go if your hungry."

~Jgains~
He just stands there looking at him silently.... glaring towards him with his eyes burning red then slowly powers down as his energy stops flowing around his body and his armor disapears turning him to normal. "Ill find my own meal, I dont need anything from anybody else" Swiftly he turns away walking back down the path that he was originally headed down towards holding his sword at his side staring down at the ground and lets out a brief sigh. After walking for a few minutes reaches the enterance of the cave back to the village.

~Flamedog~
"you are to self dibented" drat was their setting with kitty and she was heath "thanks for heling her" drat said "i still have some meat why dont you come with use to werever we go."

~Jgains~
Josh slowly enters the cave walking through noticing the lava begs then when he looks back noties the exit is in the shape of a head with teeth then grins staring towards it and laughs and fires a blast towards its face blowing off one of its eyes. Josh then grins and begins walking once again along the path entering another enterance and notices the fork in the road with 3 different paths to take, he then sits down closing his eyes concentrating thinking what path to take

~Flamedog~
"lets take the frist one our i can transport to find the right path" drat told him as he walked in cricles "here i go." he said then disberd and reberd "the right one is the secoen one ."

~Jgains~
"why are you following me... didnt i make my self clear that i prefer to be alone...." Josh glares towards him with his eyes glowing from the mako energy

~Flamedog~
"why do you care im gust trying to help you."drat said as he walked down the path we poth have great porer and if we go our seprt wy it coud be bad me evil and you good we could end the world

~Jgains~
He stands upwards "All I need is my power and my blade. I dont care to have friends or anything. I will take my own path, you may follow if you want but do not bother me, ive spent my whole life alone and i dont want to change anything about it." Josh slowly turns and takes the middle path walking down staring around looking at the lava pools.

"Past this cave is a town you can take your friend there to rest, I will lead you the way after that you will leave me be, agreed?" Josh then walks down the path takes out his blade and dips it ito the lava pools giving it more power then stands up and begins walking once again Until he finds himself looking up towards a ladder. "This is the way out hopefully Bugenhagen didnt seal off the enterance"

~Flamedog~
"ok i will but we mght path each other agian." drat said as he walked the way josh ponited him "bye josh." he said as he walked "we might meat agian."

~Jgains~
"I seriously doubt that im headed towards Midgar, where Shinra's headquarters are located, and i doubt that you would want to go there." Josh slowly starts to levitate as his body lifts from the ground then flies upwards past the later checking to see if the opening was still closed. Seeing that it was still opened he fades apearing back down andl looks at Drat and Kitty "Will she be able to climb the ladder? if not i can fly her upwards."

~Reno~
Kitty glared at Josh and Drat, "seesh i SWEAR you both think i'm too weak for my own good! i could have handled that damn bug and yes i can climb ladders! i am not some weak simpleton!!"

Kitty growled and walked toward the ladder and started climbing it. she was muttering something like 'stupid idoit men think they're all great.' when she ghot to the top she looked down at the two.

"WELL COME ON!!!" She yelled down at them before turning and walking off.

~Jgains~
Josh's body slowly fades disapearing then apears at the top watching the two of them climb up towards the later thinking to himself "there taking to long" Josh leans up against the wall and lets out a brief yawn then looks down towards the ground waiting patiently.

~Reno~
Kitty glared at Josh.

"SHOW OFF!!!" she screamed. when she had gotten all the way to the top she hit Josh in the head, "you're a jerk you know that?"

~Jgains~
Josh Glares towards her"hit me again and youll lose that arm, do you understand?" Josh turns and walks off opening the near by door looking towards the town of Cosmo Canyon. "The two of you can find shelter here, the people here are kind and know many things about the planet, it would be wise to talk to them." Josh Turns towards them slowly "i will rest here for the night but tommorow i will take my leave, follow me if you want i dont care just stay out of my way." His eyes start glowing green slightly then he turns and slowly walks down the steps holding his dragonsblade tightly in his right hand staring towards the ground...

~Reno~
Kitty growls and follows him. She muttered something about cetra showoffs.

~Jgains~
Josh slowly turns around and looks towards her "u know like i said earlier im part protoss i know all your thoughts aswell so whispering something behind my back is pointless, and i wasnt trying to show off I lived my whole life alone in the forest using my powers is a habit because i needed them to survive...." Josh then thinks why the hell did i just tell her that then walks down the steps pacing towards the inn

~Reno~
Kitty stood there then her whole face turned red. she was thinking if he could see through the fact she liked him. naw...

"DAMN him!" She basically screamed making everyone around look at her. she blushed, turned and walked off.

~Jgains~
Josh slowly turns watching her turn away "where are you going the inn is over there, if you want any rest nevermind" he then turned away thinking to himself then walks into the inn and pays for his room handing the owner 50 gil. Right after getting his room then sits down and grabs the blade of his sword then squeezes it with his right hand feeling the flesh swiftly get torn away as blood slowly begins dripping out from it then slowly stares at the blood as it rushes down from his hand and all over his blade. Slowly he brings his hand close up to his face staring at the huge that he made and smiles putting it back on his sword drenching it with the blood and thinking about his past....

~Reno~
Kitty sighed and walked out to the Cosmo Candle. she sat down by the fire and looked at it. It reminded her of Josh. She shook her head.

"Awe damn," She muttered.

Her thoughs soon turned towards her family and she shuddered. she wondered what love and affection was. all she remebered was a man named Nyis. she shivered at the memories she had. a chain whip aginst her bare skin, loseing her virginaty at 12. She started shivering again. she still had the scars of it all. she felt a wetness run down her cheek. she brushed the tear away angrily. she never cried since she was 12 after the...

Kitty brushed another tear away. her life had been a memorable one alright. if only.... she could forget.

~Jgains~
While staring at the wound on his hand he let out a brief sigh as he began thinking when he lost his family along time ago when he was only a young child at an age he has now forgotten... Shinra Turks had been chasing after them in the forest and he had tripped and was then his family kept running with out him.

All his toughness then slowly began to disipate as he thought of his mother then a small tear flowed down from his cheek and he laid down on the bed holding his silver dragons spirit necklace near to him thinking why they didnt stop to get him when he fell and why they had left him to live in the forest all alone for the many years of his child hood...... "I should of just died out there why is it i was able to live all those years alone as just a child..."

Josh Then slowly sits up and walks outside staring up at the sky looking towards the moonlight as he has done everynight since he was a child. Slowly he begins pacing towards the fire and sits across from kitty. He slowly puts his hand into the fire until it seals up the cut on his hand then pulls it outwards then stares towards the flames watching the flames go by then looks up at her "beautiful arent they its amazing how they move so elegently just as if they where nothing but power"

Josh Grins puttingh is hands through the flames as nothing happens just keeping them there for a whole 5 seconds thenpulls then outwards and just stares at his hand....

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him for awhile then laughs bitterly, "yeah but a wildfire causes destruction but even if it did... would it be for the better or worse? Shinra is like that wildfire... destroying everything in it's path with no mercy... no heart, and no feeling."

Kitty let the wind blow at her hair and she looked up at the stars. she smiled slightly, "if only we could get away from it all... and be in the stars."

[Reno]

~Jgains~
"A wild fire you speak wrong of them... wild fires are healthy for forests they keep trees from growing to much around each other, Without the wild fires animals would have little area to move around in forest. I learned this when i was a child" He slowly moves his hand through the fire as nothing happens at all then lifts it upwards...

"Shinra is more like the fires caused by man deadly to the forests and not needed in this world. Mankind discusts me all humans care about are themselves and not the world destroying it with there factories, and chopping down the forests... but there are some exeptions, some humans have hearts.... like the ones here in cosmo canyon"

He stares at her and grins

~Reno~
Kitty blinked and started blushing, "i uh.... yeah i suppose you're right but some humans in this world had no.... well love or they grew up by being abused or something. it was never their fault in otherwords. i know... i lived in the slums and i know what it's like to be treated cruelly... but somehow i managed to still have a heart and soul."

~Jgains~
Josh stares at her "kind of seems like your one of those humans with a heart..." He yawns cracking the left side of his neck hearing it pop. "but ive grown to not trust anyone at all its how i live and have always lived on my own alone from everyone else. the few times i saw other people as a child was when the where tearing down the forests and building there damn mako factories..." He sighs staring at the ground sadly then takes out his dragonsblade and a stone and begins sharpening it slowly moving the rock along the edge of the blade then looks up at her and lets up a small smile. Josh then looks down at the groun with his hair hanging down still sharpenning the blade......

~Reno~
Kitty blinked and walked over to him, "no one can really trust anyone." She muttered then looked at him.

~Jgains~
He slowy lifts his head looking up at her "i only wish that werent true, but ive lived my whole life not trusting anyone since i lost my family... i dont want to change either" Turning his head towards the fire he stares at it thinking about the past

~Reno~
"well, trust isn't always something that comes easy... but maybe you should try." Kitty said staring at Josh. she smiled slightly.

~Jgains~
"why its pointless, everyone that ive tried to trust has stabbed me in the back.... take hojo for example i trusted him he took me in and made me his assistant teaching me so much then locked me in a cage and experimented with my body as if i was some dumb animal... in a labratory. All i have in my mind is revenge i dont care for anything else.." Slowly he begins squeezing his sword's blade with his hand in anger feeling his skin rip away as the blood begins rushing out from it dripping down his arm

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "hey stop!!" She yelled and grabbed his hand and took it away from the blade. she sighed, "he was a maniac! he experimented on his own son for god's sake! even his wife! he's a cruel bastard."

Kitty looked at the wound and frowned. she touched it letting the blood get over her fingers, "at least you're not female."

~Jgains~
He stares at her holding his hand "what are you doing?" Josh stares at her confused as the blood continues the drip from his hand down his arm...

~Reno~
Kitty just shook her head before looking at him. their were tears in her eyes, "if fate wanted you to kill yourself you would have. you must have a reason in this world so don't bang yourself up because of the past. what's done is done so you must move on."

~Jgains~
"Kill myself from cutting my hand? not likley that would kill me i enjoy seeing my own blood thats all it keeps me calm..." Slowly his hand begins forming green light around it and the wound seals up healing itself with the energy then he stands up looking at her... "do not cry over me ok" he slowly brings up his hand and brushes the tear off her cheek then sits back down looking into the fire,

~Reno~
Kitty looked down her hair falling into her face, "maybe.... i just..." Kitty had trailed off and just sat there looking at the ground.

~Jgains~
Josh looks at her and lets out small smile "you just what?" he then grabs his sword and puts it back in its case wrapping it around his back... still staring at her

~Reno~
Kitty sighed, "maybe i just care about you..."

Kitty was biting her tounge.

~Jgains~
"why would you care for me.... nobody has ever cared for me and i dont believe it to be possible from the life ive had" He lets out a brief sigh staring at the ground sadly
~Reno~
"Well, same with me. i don't even know what love or affection is. i never met my parents... all i remeber is a chain whip with me stark naked and i have the scars to prove it, a knife across me chest, and being... raped. all by Nyis." Kitty said bitterly glaring at the ground while tears ran down her face, "but i still have a right to care and you seem to be just like me. i understand in a way."

~Jgains~
Slowly he hugs her wrapping his arms around her "dont cry alright its not good for people to cry" He wonders to himself why she told him what she told him. "just dont cry understand"

~Reno~
Kitty nodded after awhile but she put her head on his shoulder, "yes... i guess i do..." She muttered.

~Jgains~
he pulls back then takes off his long coat then puts it over her "you must be cold use that to keep you warm" he smiles at her then turns his head towards the fire then puts his hand inside the flames keeping it there

~Reno~
Kitty smiled lightly, "...thank you," She said.

~Jgains~
he slowly nods moving his hand through out the flames then grabs a piece of the wood bringint it out holding it and crushes it boredly

~Reno~
Kitty rasied an eyebrow. she smiled evily and kissed Josh.

~Jgains~
He pulled backwards falling on his back blushing with his face bright red "why did you do that...."

~Reno~
Kitty smiled, "i told you i cared about you but you didn't ask HOW i cared about you."

~Jgains~
He stares up at her still blushing red not ever being kissed before ever as he sweats nervously...

~Reno~
"first kiss eh? a guy as cute as you should have women hanging off of you!" Kitty smiled and bends down and kissed him again.

~Jgains~
He tries pulling back but cant and he gives out and faints as his head falls to the ground

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him and starts laughing, "oh my god," She said between laughs, "i hope i didn't scare him too much." She smiled and ran a hand through his hair, smiling.

~Jgains~
He lays there motionless with the nights sky glaring its light towards his body and the wind passing by dreaming of his childhood when he and his family where together....

~Reno~
Kitty smiles and lays down next to Josh. she wraps her arms around him and she closes her eyes. she lays her head on his chest and listens to his heartbeat.

~Jgains~
Lying there he begins remembering his final moments in midgar when Hojo began injecting the protoss dna inside of his body the pain from the tubes that where stuck into him as the blood rushed into his body burning his skin from every pour and him screaming in pain. Then he Wakes up sitting up and sits there breathing heavily holding onto his knees scared....

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "josh? are you alright?"

~Jgains~
He just sits there breathing heavily not responding for a second "im fine, ill be fine...."
~Reno~
Kitty sighed, "you're lieing Josh."

~Jgains~
he laughs a little "i know" then stands up staring at the ground still breathing heavily then slowly his body begins changing into a dark archon with red aura surrounds his body. Then Golden armor forms around his chest area along with parts on his skin turning a shade of black "this is what they did to me, they wanted to turn me into the ultimate soldier and keep me under there control... but it backfired when i got away..." He stare at his right hand making it burning red as flames begin to surround it

[Reno]

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "that's not your fault. that maniac did it to you."

~Jgains~
Slowly the flames fade away along with his armor and he changes back to normal then falls to one knee gasping for air worm out from the change then coughs out some blood.... "heh it always does that humanoid like beings arent suppost to be able to become archons..."

~Reno~
"what are archons?" Kitty asked curiously.

~Jgains~
he turns and coughs out a bit more blood "its not important" he then stands up and begins walking back to the inn holding his heart with his right hand felling the pain

~Reno~
Kitty frowns and feels a bit ticked. she growled gets up and follows him.

~Jgains~
He Stumbles in leaning against the wall and reaches in his pocket for the key to his room then tries pushing it into the lock but drops the key and slowly reaches down and picks it up and pushes it inside twisting the nob and walks inside leaving the door open and just stares inside

~Reno~
Kitty walks in after him. she sighs, "....."

~Jgains~
He slowly walks to the bed and just sits there staring at the ground sadly....

~Reno~
Kitty walks next to him. not sure of what to do she sits next to him and hugs him.

~Jgains~
he looks at her confused turning bright red "why are you hugging me...."

~Reno~
"you just seem so sad. you looked like you needed a hug soooo i gave you one!" Kitty said giving him a kid-like smile.

~Jgains~
"why are you being so kind to me.... nobody has ever been kind to me..." He then pulls back and stares at the ground sadly and lets out a brief sigh..

~Reno~
"everyone needs to know what affection is in their lifes Josh. i may not have had it but i guess i know how to give it." Kitty said rubbing the back of his neck.

~Jgains~
He starts blushing bright red pulling backwards "I told you and your friend before i enjoy my lonelyness.... " he eventually pulls back into the wall.

~Reno~
Kitty just follows him, "you may think that but you know in your heart that is not true. you hate being alone." Kitty rubs her hand against his cheek.

~Jgains~
He stares at her "i do not hate it i enjoy it ive lived my whole life alone in the wilderness and i dont want to change it..." He tries backing up but cant and starts sweating badly.

~Reno~
Kitty just shakes her head, "you're lonly."

~Jgains~
He slowly nods "I know i am thats how i want it to be"

~Reno~
Kitty shakes her head, "no you don't. you can tell yourself that as much as you want but you really don't want it."

~Jgains~
He shakes his head to her "why are you telling me this you dont even know me, nobody does, only I know how i feel inside my mind"

~Reno~
Kitty sighes, "your mind isn't what gives you emotions. just processes it. you're heart is where they are."

Kitty puts a hand on his chest where is heart is, "and sometimes you don't always know what your emotions are so you deny them and think it's something else."

~Jgains~
He closes his eyes"I have no emotion i lost all that a very long time ago i have no heart i have no love for anything" Last edited by: JGains on 25-01-03 16:50:12

~Reno~
Kitty was getting restless with him but she wouldn't give into her anger... or sadness, "listen! YOU HAVE EMOTION! ever one does! every one has a weak point and even in emotions. you still care. you wouldn't have bothered to care if i had died or not out there if you didn't have emotion. you do so just admit it. you're just denying them! you're too afarid to show them because you're afarod of getting hurt!"

~Jgains~
He keeps his eyes closed and doesnt respond just sits there thinking sadly and sighs then looks at her "i have no emotion.... understand stop trying to bring out a part of me that doesnt exist"

~Reno~
Kitty was now at her peak of patience but if she got mad now she would ruin it. instead she used the same soft voice she had been useing this whole time, "Josh.... i..... i still think you do have emotion. you have to have them."

~Jgains~
he glares towards her then slowly his body fades off then apears on the bed with him just sitting there staring at the ground "I dont have them and i dont want them, my family left me they were the last i ever cared for and now they are gone...." A small tear comes from his right eye dripping down his cheek...

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him before walking over to him and wiping the tear away, "people without emotions don't cry Josh. you have them you are just a very hurt person." She said softly.

~Jgains~
He wipes the tear "I wasnt crying i had something in my eye... I dont cry ever" He grips his right hand tightly trying to think what to do

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him, "you're lying" She said simply but she didn't sound mad just sad.

~Jgains~
"I dont have to take this from you! Your just a mere human er..." He stands up and walks off outside and stares up at the moon then leans up against the outside wall and sits there closing his eyes and he breaks down and starts to cry holding his head up against his knees.

~Reno~
Kitty just frowns. she sits there before following Josh. when she finds him she smiles lightly and kneels next to him, "you must believe me now." She muttered before hugging him.

~Jgains~
"er... just stay away from me i dotn want this feeling inside of me... why did you do this to me... i did nothing to you" He keeps his head not looking at her at all

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him, "if i leave... you will feel very bad but if you really want me to i will."

She was looking at him and her hands tightened around him as if she were afarid to let him go. she was praying he didn't make her leave.

~Jgains~
He looks up at her "do what you want i dont care...." He then looks down again sadly still crying but not as much as before

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "Josh it's time for you to decide. DO you want me to leave or not?"

~Jgains~
He closes his eyes resting his head on her shoulder "i dont care"

~Reno~
Kitty put her hand on his head and the other on his back. she held him closer, "you gotta stop lieing to yourself."

~Jgains~
Slowly he begins crying himself to sleep as his eyes shut completley and he just rests right next to her peacefully with the nights sky shining brightly from the moon...

~Reno~
Kitty smiled, "sleep well."

Kitty smiled before taking him back to his apartment. she laid him in bed and covered him up. she plaied with his hair while sitting on the bed.

~Jgains~
He slept peacefully not moving at all, not even dreaming, he just breathed laying down...

~Reno~
Kitty smiled lightly and laid down next to him.

~Jgains~
Resting his head on the pillow his eyes slowly opened up. He looked up at the ceiling wondering where he was. Josh then turned his head and saw her laying next to him then stares at her and smiles slitley then stares at the ceiling just sitting there wondering why she keeps following him...

[Reno]

~Reno~
Kitty noticing he was awake smiled but she didn't act like she was awake. she just pretend sleeped waiting for him to do something.

~Jgains~
He looks at her and grins "dont pretend its rude, i can tell your awake my phychic ablitlites let me know" he sits there still staring at her

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him and grinned, "let you know what?" she asked in a sweet tone.

~Jgains~
He lays back down turning away from her staring at the wall thinking to himself not respond to her at all. He relaxes his head into the pillow then reaches back for the tail of his hair and unties it letting his hair fall outwards then fiddles around with the band that had it tied boredly....

~Reno~
Kitty frowns lightly before smirking and running her hand through his hair.

~Jgains~
He turns around and stares at her looking into her eyes "what are you doing... "

~Reno~
Kitty smiled lightly locking eyes with him, "i am doing what i think is conforting to you. do you wish me to stop?"

~Jgains~
"Nothing comforts me, ever... nothing but bloodshed that is" He stares at his hand that he cut earlier and its scar that had now formed and smiles towards it.

~Reno~
Kitty frowns and gets closer to him. she kissed his cheek, "lier."

~Jgains~
He blushes pulling back scared and begins sweating "stop doing that it makes me feel weird"

~Reno~
Kitty smiles, "what do you think the feeling is?"

Kitty got even closer to him.

~Jgains~
He backs up further "i dont care what kind of feeling it is i dont like it, so just stop" Josh begins sweating worse and getting more nervous with her getting closer to him

~Reno~
Kitty smirks and rans one hand through his hair while the other caresses his cheek, "no i really think you would want to know... what is the feeling?"

~Jgains~
He laughs a little and starts shaking nervously "s...s..sto..p that i dont like it" He pushes her hand away from him then turns away facing the wall

~Reno~
Kitty frowns then puts her hand on his neck. she sits up and kisses him lightly.

~Jgains~
he continued shaking then his body faded disapearing then apeared across the room leaning against the wall then just sits there breathing heavily scared for the first time in a long time

~Reno~
Kitty falls off the bed, "......"

She sits up and looks at him and her eyes look a bit hurt. she gets up and walks over to him before kissing him then leaving the room.

~Jgains~
His body slowly disapears and then reapears infront of her " you do not have to leave im sorry, its just that nobody has ever..." He sighs then turns and walks back inside the room sadly staring at the ground and sits down then reaches for his dragonsblade putting his hand around the blade and squeezes feeling the blood rush out then he stares towards his hand and smiles slightly at his blood. Slowly the smile turns into a frown as he heals his hand not knowing what to do with his life at all anymore

~Reno~
Kitty walks back inside. she frowns, "you're confused." She stated as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

"or maybe... it's love."

~Jgains~
He looks up at her and frowns "Love... I have none of that I told you before. In order for me to love i would have to care and i do not care at all." He stares at her sadly knowing that he has been lying to himself for so long.

~Reno~
Kitty stares at him before taking out her dagger and sliting her whole arm open. a few seconds later she was on the ground unconicois.

~Jgains~
He looks at her then runs up to her as she falls "dont do that no!!" He gets down onto his knees and slowly begins praying as his hands beging glowing with green enegy he then sets his hands onto her body and begins healing her with his cetra energy.

~Reno~
Kitty opens an eye and smiled a bit, ".... you care about me..."

~Jgains~
He looks at her and hugs her tightly "dont do that again do you hear me, the last thing i want is to lose somebody else in my life" He starts to cry thinking of how he lost his family long ago.

~Reno~
Kitty smiles, "well i don't see why i'm alive. i love you thought Josh. can't you understand that?"

~Jgains~
He frowns "er... dont say that nobody loves me. I will not stand for somebody saying they care for me, the last people that did so just ran off and left me there to die. They didnt even come back to search for me"

~Reno~
Kitty frowns then started sobbing.

~Jgains~
He stared down at the ground "Shinra came after us my mother my sister my two brothers and I.... we had to run. We ran to a forest to get away and i tripped my mother didnt stop to get me all of they just kept running. She said she loved me but she didnt stop to get me... I was left to live in the wilderness on my own for all those years... that is why i am like how i am and why i dont believe in love"

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "SO YOU WON'T GIVE ME A CHANCE AND LET ME LIVE?!" Kitty breaks down again.

~Jgains~
He stared at her confused "what do you mean? You are living that made no sense at all to let you live. I did not threaten your life, intead i saved it twice already"

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "well if i have no love whats the point in living?!"

~Jgains~
He looked at her sadly "I cannot love you or anybody else. It is not apart of me i have no feeling or anything i am sorry" His face started looking sader as he knew he was lying more to himself and he let out a sigh

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him and started glaring at him. her patience was gone. all that was left was anger and sadness, "YOU'RE A COMPLETE FOOL! I CAN NOT BELIEVE YOU WOULD TRY AND CONVINENMCE YOURSELF OF SUCH A THING!"

~Jgains~
He looked at her sadly then stands up and sits back down on the bed "I am sorry for even of meeting you if all i have brought you is anger and sadness..." He lays back down on the bed and turns staring at the wall

~Reno~
Kitty sits up and glares at him, "you're an idoit. period. A REAL COMPLETE FOOL! if i have to say it again i will! i love you!! now can't you give me a chance?! you're hurting me by doing this obviously!"

~Jgains~
He just stares at the wall not turning to look at her " how can you love somebody that you have barely known for less than a day... It was only a few hours that we have met and now you love me i dont understand it"

~Reno~
Kitty sighed, "love doesn't always have all the answers."

~Jgains~
Josh slowly turns back and looks at her and sits up "what did i do to make you love me, I dont understand. All I did was save you then walk off and you and your friend followed me after i told you not to."

~Reno~
Kitty smiled at him, "i already told you that love doesn't have all the answers. neither does my heart."

~Jgains~
He slowly stands up and walks up to her and puts his hand onto her face brushes it against her cheek. "im sorry but i cant love you, my destiny in this world has nothing to do with you or i would of seen it coming long ago"

~Reno~
Kitty frowned at him as tears ran down her cheeks again, "you.... you can't be right about that!!"

~Jgains~
He frowned sadly at her "the protoss being creatures dna that was injected into my body gave me a sixth sense i know my own future. I know the one that i will eventually come to love... i know a great deal about how my life will be and how it will end i am sorry"

~Reno~
Kitty stared at him before breaking down right then and there. she got up and ran out of the room. never in her life had she felt so depressed.

~Jgains~
He stood there not staring at the ground hating his own life then grabbed his sword and his guns and then walked out of the room. Slowly he aproached the gates to the town ready to leave to venture off onto his journey to midgar he just stoood there staring down at the steps thinking to himself "im sorry kitty.."

~Reno~
Kitty was sitting by Cosmo Candle crying. she stared at the fire and growled, "fire resembles anger...." She thought to herself feeling the anger mix with her sadness. she laid down and closed her eyes.

~Jgains~
Slowly he began walking down the steps staring towards the ground "I shouldnt of saved her, all it has done is put this feeling inside of me that ive never had before.." He reaches the bottom of the steps and walks into the desert slowly heading towards the east... "once i reach costa del sol ill stay there till the next boat comes in"

~Reno~
Kitty who had caught a glance of Josh sighed. she growled got up and ran down all the steps and started trailing him.

~Jgains~
Pacing his steps through the sand he felt the wind blowing towards him. His hair flew back with his coat flapping through the wind. The Dragonsblade grasped in his hands flames blew violently from the wind. His eyes gleamed with the infection from the mako energy with a green glow around then.

~Reno~
Kitty followed watching him. thinking how much she wished to have him with her. she shook her head. her long flowing hair following her movement.

~Jgains~
He felt somebody behind him then turned slowly and saw her "you still follow me why..."

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "i have my reasons."

~Jgains~
He turns and begins walking once again "this is to long of a journey for a human to just walk, and the desert can be cruel, so just turn back" He sighs and continues walking

~Reno~
Kitty growled and followed him, "i'm not weak you know! i can take care of myself. if i die out here i wouldn't really care."

~Jgains~
He stoped and looked at her "just stop it ok... I wont give my feelings to anyone, you may love me but that doesnt matter cause i wont love anyone. Even if the things i saw tell me i eventually will i dont care, because i will do everything that I can do to prevent those feelings from happening." He turns and starts to run grasping his sword tightly

[Reno]

~Reno~
Kitty growls and runs after him, " AND I DON'T GIVE UP EASILY!" She yelled as she ran her voice being carried through the wind.

~Jgains~
He kept running faster then not paying any attention trips over a rock. He fell down to the ground face first and skid into the sand.

~Reno~
Kitty smirked and snickered. she walked next to him and kneeled down. she just shook her head and helped him up, "be careful the desert can be cruel." She smirked at him.

~Jgains~
He pushed her away "i dont need your help!" He then stood up on his own and began walking "stop following me understand"

~Reno~
Kitty glared at him, "make me!" She started following him.

~Jgains~
He Reached to the side of his right leg and pulled out his 9mm gun pointing it towards her "I said leave me alone, all you have done is brought me sadness you made me cry and i didnt enjoy it."

~Reno~
Kitty walked closer and glared at him, "i dare you! you wouldn't do it! you don't have it in you!"

~Jgains~
He glared at her and laughed slightly " how sure are you of that, ive killed many in the past. What makes you think i wont do it again..."

~Reno~
Kitty smirked at him, "because i know you won't."

~Jgains~
He aims it to the side of her head then slowly pulls the trigger watching as the bullet flies past her head not hitting her " damn you er.. " He turns and walks off pissed completely putting his gun back in its case then walks faster

~Reno~
Kitty smirks and follows him.

~Jgains~
He stopped then got into rage. He stepped into a horse riding stance holding out his arms to the side flexing them as huge amounts of redish yellow flames began surrounding his body. The sand began circualatiing around him violently. The color of his eyes changed and began glowing red along with his armor forming onto his body, his arms changed metalic and his skin under his neck turned into a shade of black. The ground began shaking violently the as the huge flames grew longer then he turned around forming lifting up his right arm holding it infront of him making it burning red. "How bad do you want to die!!!"

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him, "as bad as you can give me." She replied.

~Jgains~
he begins thinking to himself "i cant do this i cant kill her... why cant i do it, im in my dark archon form but i still cant do it.. why wont i allow myself to kill her.." He then falls down to one knee and slams his right hand into the ground

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him before walking over to him. she kneeled down and looked at him.

~Jgains~
He just stood there kneeling with his fist int the same spot in the ground not looking up at her thinking "why cant i kill her ive killed so many others in the past why cant i bring myself to kill her"

~Reno~
Kitty frowns and outs her han on his cheek.

~Jgains~
He looks up at her sadly just staring towards her not saying anything and puts his hand over hers

~Reno~
Kitty looks at him before leaning in and kissing him.

~Jgains~
He slowly kisses back for a brief second then pulls back as his bodies armor slowly disapears changing him back to normal then just stares at her..

~Reno~
Kitty stares back and still had her hand on his cheek, "...Josh."

~Jgains~
he stands up "I shouldnt of done that... I cant at all ive seen my future i know how its suppost to be... ive even seen the faces of my own children and there mother..."

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "who is it?"

~Jgains~
He looked down "I dont know... I only know her face that is it, that is why i am headed towards midgar to find her... and i know that one of my lost family members is there... my sister"

~Reno~
Kitty stood and sighed, "well then i'm with you all the way!"

~Jgains~
He just stares at her "why do you want to help me..."

~Reno~
Kitty sighed, "not everything has a reason to it. i have my own."

~Jgains~
He slowly stands upwards " you are from the slums, and from what youved told me you hated it there. If you follow me you will just be going back there"

~Reno~
Kitty shrugged, "i don't care. been there once your bound to it to go back. i have lived there and i know every inch of Midgar. don't worry bout me. i'll be fine. i won't halousanate or something."

~Jgains~
He slowly begins to float into the air "what about your friend are you just going to leave him there..."

~Reno~
Kitty shrugged, "yep."

~Jgains~
He puts his hand out to her "give me your hand then"

~Reno~
Kitty blinked then gave him her hand.

~Jgains~
He brought her up to him holding her tightly close to him then began to fly off into the sky north east to the direction of costa del sol

~Reno~
Kitty smiled and closed her eyes. she leaned her head on his chest.

~Jgains~
After an hour of flying he stoped near a river to rest then set her down on the ground then sat there boredly near the water watching it flow by

~Reno~
Kitty looked at the water and then dipped her hand in it.

~Jgains~
He put his hands through it then brought some up with one of his hands and drinks it and smiles

~Reno~
Kitty was just making circles with her hand, feeling the cool water against her skin. she smiled.

~Jgains~
He slowly jumped into the water and swam around on his back staring up at the sky seeing that the sun was now rising

~Reno~
Kitty smiled and jumped in and wrapped her arms around him.

~Jgains~
he stared at her "what are you doing..."

~Reno~
Kitty smirked and dunked him under the water. she giggled.

~Jgains~
he was pushed down then swam up and smiled slightly at her then splashed water at her then swam backwards

~Reno~
Kitty giggled and splashed him back.

~Jgains~
He slowly faded apearing back onto land all wet with his hair dripping with water

~Reno~
Kitty blinked and looked around, "err?"

~Jgains~
He sat there silently staring up at the sky as the sun had finished rising the clouds where moving with the wind pushing them slowly and he heard the birds chirping. It brough a smile to his face hearing nature once again

~Reno~
Kitty got out of the water. she looked at him before sitting on the ground. she wrung out her hair before looking at Josh again.

~Jgains~
he looks at her "the sky is beautiful dont you think ive always enjoyed looking at it, it has been the one thing that has been able to make me smile since i was a child"

~Reno~
Kitty smiled and nodded, "yes it is. i love it at night. the first time i got to see the sky... it had amazed me."

~Jgains~
he looked at her confused "what do you not see the sky in midgar?"

~Reno~
Kitty shook her head, "no the plate prevented it. when i was little i always thought that the sky really was metal..."

~Jgains~
He laughs slightly then looks at the ground "when I was little all i can remember is trees I lived in some abandoned temple shaped like a pyramid when i turend 17 i was found by shinra they took me in i became a soldier and later hojo's assistant for a few years then at the age of 22 he betrayed me and now here i am"

~Reno~
Kitty blinked, "when i was little i rememeber darkness. Nyis.... my... 'owner' threw me in a cupboard most of the time. that's basically where i spelt and spent most of my time. i got fed table scraps. the only reason i knew what else was around me was because i had to do chores when i got a bit older. maybe 6. i finally got away when i was around 16 after i killed that bastard."

~Jgains~
he looked down staring at the ground"I killed my first person at the age of 6 right when i tripped one of the turks had cought up to me so i turned and jumped at him and stabbed a dagger into his throat then ran as fast as i could and eventually found myself at the temple"

~Reno~
Kitty sighed, "yeah well you aren't a girl at least. rape isn't nice. neither is strip dancing for money."

~Jgains~
he put a hand on her shoulder "hey cheer up youll never have to go through that again I promise you, Ill be your friend and protect you" He nods smiling at her

~Reno~
Kitty looked up at him nd smiled she hugged him, "thank you."

~Jgains~
he hugs back "your welcome, its funny my last friend was hojo... "

~Reno~
"kinda twisted as well." kitty said and closed her eyes.

~Jgains~
He held her tight in his arms for a while then let go and stood up "ive rested enough and i want to make it to costa del sol before it gets dark are you ready?"

[Reno]

~Reno~
Kitty sighed inside for being let go. it seemed to go by so fast to her. she nodded, "yeah."

~Jgains~
He puts his hand on hers rubbing it slightly then stands up staring up at the sky "it will be a long trip"

~Reno~
Kitty smiled slightly, "i'm up for it." She muttered nearly drowniong in his affection.

~Jgains~
He slowly foats up a few inches off the ground then looks up "lets go then"

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him. smed and nodded. she enjoyed his company that's for sure.

~Jgains~
He slowly reaches to her hand pulling her up towards him and once again flies into the sky with the wind blowing towards his face pushing his hair backwards... He stared dead ahead smiling at the sky

~Reno~
Kitty smiled and got closer to him. the feeling of just being with him made her happy. this was the first time she ever felt truly happy.

~Jgains~
He flew forwards then turned his head looked at her and smiled as he held her tightly in his arms then looked straight ahead not saying anything at all

~Reno~
Kitty smiled and got closer. she had her head on his chest, "i'm sorry if i am heavy..."

~Jgains~
He looked towards her "your not heavy at all, im stronger than any body else youve ever seen"

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "even sephiroth?"

~Jgains~
He grined "no... ive seen his power when i was in soldier i was able to reach the 1st class ranks but what ever they did to him to make him as strong as he was it is to much for me to handle... even as a dark archon he would easily destroy me"

~Reno~
Kitty smiled, "then i guess you aren't the strngest person i've ever seen but i think you come in second."

~Jgains~
"someday when i can control my dark archon form not even sephiroth will be able to stand in my way I know it. Ive unlocked its hidden potential once before but i dont know how i did it. My armor seemed to raise up from the shoulders and huge metalic wings sprouted from my back I dont know how it happend but it did....I will find out how to control it and then destroy shinra once and for all"

~Reno~
Kitty nodded, "thats what everyone wants to do."

~Jgains~
He nods staring at her "yes i know" looking forwards he sees the crossing of the river then slowly lands on the ground "I need to rest again im losing my energy, to much flying drains it"

~Reno~
Kitty nodded and made him sit down then she made him lay down and she laid down next to him. she snuggled up against him.

~Jgains~
He lays there staring up at the sky with her next to him. He watches as the clouds slowly move by pacing through the sky. Slowly he turns his head looking at her "my energy has depleted i wont be able to fly for a while..."

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him and smiled, "that's ok."

She was just fine spending time with him and only him. it's nice really. at least... to her it was a dream come true.

~Jgains~
He smiled at her briefly then slowly it turned to a frown as he let out a sigh

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him and brushed his cheek with the back of her hand.

"what's wrong?" she asked.

~Jgains~
He didnt respond at all just sitting there then turned his head away from her...

~Reno~
Kitty frowned. to get his attention she smirked and put her hand under his shirt and she started nipping at his neck.

~Jgains~
His face started turning red then he turned straight towards her looking at her "i cant do this with you... "

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "josh please! you can change the future! please??"

~Jgains~
Slowly he stands up "I dont want to change the future... I saw myself happy for the first time in a long time I was actually happy with them... I dont want to lose that"

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him, "but...... you don't even KNOW your wife!"

~Jgains~
He looks into the sky " will someday...and that day will be a good day the first in a long time..." The visions i saw her and our children together.. a young boy and a little girl.. I saw me and my son together talking to each other happily I dont want to lose that" He begins remembering the vision of him and his son together in a plain talking to one another...

OOC: this is a pic of what he starts remembering from the vision www.geocities.com/gradd08/JgainsAndTenks" copy and paste it for it to work

~Reno~
Kitty looked at him tears filling her eyes, "but... how do you know it's not me then?"

~Jgains~
He turns his head towards her sadly "I know her face... thats why you are not her..."

~Reno~
Kitty tackled him onto the ground. she was glarin g at him as tears ran down her face and onto his, "y-y-you bastard! you can't be right!" her grip lessened as she continued to cry.

~Jgains~
Staring up at her he didnt smille or frown. Slowly he closed his eyes "Im sorry kitty... im not lying.."

~Reno~
Kitty started shaking before she collasped on top of him crying hysterically.

~Jgains~
Josh pushed her off of him and began to walk off slowly pacing his steps not saying anything.

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